Learning To Be Still In The Moment

I’m long overdue for a blog post and update.

London was awesome, including a day and night in Paris. Got home a few days before the terrorist attacks at Parliament, so that was a bit unsettling. Just a few days earlier I’d been right there having lunch at a pub with an old friend who is stationed outside of London with the military. Overall it was a great trip.

Have I mentioned I love Harry Potter?

Stonehenge

The Louvre

Shortly after the trip I got 3 new tattoos. I seem to go in spurts. I’ll say I’m done and then I’ll hit on a great idea (this time from my cousin) and suddenly want a bunch. Upon hearing that I got 3 tattoos at once my dad asked, “What happened to minimalism?” and calls it “selective minimalism.” Funny guy! The irony is not lost on me, yet isn’t that what minimalism is all about? Selecting what you love? So that brings the total to 10 tattoos now. I won’t bother saying I’m done this time, because who knows?

Less Is More

I’m still working on my financial goals, namely my mortgage. I got a nice raise last month which will certainly help. The mortgage balance is currently just under $77,000 and changes weekly. Almost halfway there…

Learning How To Just Be

Now the real update.

Lately I’ve been feeling funky about things in life. Not depressed, just a little unsure about some things. Since practically age 14 I’ve been hustling hard. Work, education, military, financial goals, my blog, always trying to tackle the next accomplishment and improve myself. Always striving to be more or better…more intentional, more eco-friendly, a better friend, more appreciative of life, more frugal, a more informed human, more whatever.

And while I do believe most of these things are important values and I still strongly believe in living them and continuing to improve myself…sometimes living with intention is just exhausting. I realized that I don’t know how to just BE. Be still. Be present. Be in the moment. My mind is constantly thinking about the next goal, the next book, the blog post I “should” write, more ways to save money, the next eco-friendly habit to develop, and the next change to make to make myself a “better” human being.

It’s hard to explain. I’m not depressed. I’m not unhappy with who I am. I’m not trying to be someone else. I’m more at peace with who I am than ever and wish I’d started embracing it sooner. I think I just need to cut myself some slack and learn to just be still in the moment. Ambition is good and I don’t think I’ll ever lose that, but I don’t need to be so ON all the time.

I need to learn to be comfortable with justΒ being. I put a lot of pressure on myself to embrace life and live it to the fullest, because I know many who have not had the chance. But sometimes I need to give myself a break from the hustle and just enjoy the moment without thinking about next or better.

I don’t know what that means for the future of this blog, and if you’ve read for awhile, you’ve definitely seen it change as my interest has waned over the past year. I thank you for continuing to be a part of my journey. (One thing I have decided is that I’ll no longer be doing my monthly posts sharing what books I read. If you still want to see what I read, I post almost all of them on Instagram.)

So my little nugget for today…cut yourself some slack and just enjoy the things you’ve worked hard for in life.

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10 Comments

  1. Thank you for sharing! You helped me realize the same! I am going to try to just “be”….

  2. Yes! I am working on just being as well! Congrats on gaining more clarity! I’m living vicariously through your Europe photos πŸ’— Thank you for sharing!

  3. This is awesome. I’ve felt God budging me toward more stillness for a while now. It’s very hard for me though. I did a 4-day mountain hike (25 miles) with my men’s group last Fall which “forced” stillness because we had no phones or other devices. It was amazing. Now that I’m back “in the world” though I need to figure out how to integrate that stillness into my everyday life. It’s a work in progress.

  4. I can really relate to this. I always feel like I’m wasting time when I’m not being productive, and I’m constantly thinking in to-do lists. I’d like to be more present too. One thing I’ve found to be helpful with that is yoga. It forces you to be in the moment.

    I love your tattoos! I thought I was done with tattoos too, but I’ve seen so many lately that I love, so who knows. I like how simple yours are. Perfect for a minimalist πŸ™‚

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